Again, it's one of those nights in which I just can't sleep. I lie there helplessly for about an hour. The stereo in sleep mode set to 60 minutes shuts down before I do.

Damn.

I have no choice but resort to the Internet. See who's online. Of course, there's no one up so late on a sunday night ...or monday morning. After all midnight is when the day begins.

Loneliness has about million different shades. A million different ways that it can sneak up on...

BrownEyedBoy

My grandfather who just passed away this November was a witty and elegant man.

This past September I took a trip with him to Miami.

When we were going through customs the officer asks us:

- Are you carrying any food in you bags?

My grandfather who spoke English told him nonchalantly:

-You have plenty of food here.

The officer just laughed and let us through.

My grandfather was amazing.

BrownEyedBoy

I feel so lonely. My girlfriend just left for a month to the states. She's spending christmas and new years day over there. God I miss her ...and she just left today.

My relationship with her is what keeps me from playing in the church band. They say that when you play on stage you become a role model and when other kids see that you have a girlfriend they'll go and get one too and might end up impregnating her.

I thought that was only for the main band in church but...

BrownEyedBoy

Be Love everywhere you go.

God came all the way down from heavem just to say that. 2000 years later a man who goes by the name of Bono grasped the idea.

Love. All you need is love.

Why can't we love each other as we are... no judgements.

Jesus was hated by the religious purists and loved by the "sinners" because he didn't look for their faults, he took them as they were and passed no judgement. He healed them without...

BrownEyedBoy

Things touch me or hurt me much deeper than it does to others. i really don't know what it is that makes me so damn sensitive.

I know I keep talking about my school but bear with me: this was the path I was forced to walk for 15+ years.

Everyone else was a millionaire. My family was ...haging in there. All the girls expected you to be a millionaire in order to even take you into consideration. All my life I've had this massive inferiority complex that stemmed needlessly...

BrownEyedBoy

...is hell

Regeton? Ever heard it? It's horrible. It's the worst noise possible. I didn't think someone could stray so far away from mere common sense.

It's the most monotone crap because it has the same beat - in every song. It's absolutely appalling. The "lyrics" that a couple of puertorican morons sing/scream are entirely sex-related. Vulgar and explicit. As if there weren't enough single-mothers and AIDS cases around here. (San Pedro Sula the...

BrownEyedBoy

College in Honduras isn't half of what it's suppossed to be.
I was born and raised here ...hell, I'm a native here, and sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong place. Like the stork simply dropped me off by mistake in the most random place. Honduras.

I studied at this wonderful school that has most of the faculty from the US and thus the students there are 100% bilingual. It's pretty cool, to say the least.

It's the most expensive school here meaning...

BrownEyedBoy