I feel like such an idiot.

[love_u2_adam]

ugh we aren't dating....

like i mean i know more about him and his life then his wife will probably know. Hes been through a ton of crap. it's hard to leave him cause he was my first and he hurt me then too. I walked away for 7 months with my now ex boyfriend, the for the last 5 months we've been tight. When we first met 2 years ago it was like we both looked into each others soul. I want to be his wife! But we both need to grow up and that's why i wont date him. I think that's why he thinks i tease him. i did run off with his best friend when i first broke up with my boyfriend and that really hurt him and he always bring it up. ok first off all i can say is im fucking sorry and i regret it. How do i show more?!? I'll be ok im leaving this horrible town and people so i think it'll be a good break and yes im running away from my problems.

He's 19 i forgot to say that lol..

[Laura M]

Originally Posted by love_u2_adam ugh we aren't dating.... like i mean i know more about him and his life then his wife will probably know. Hes been through a ton of crap. it's hard to leave him cause he was my first and he hurt me then too. I walked away for 7 months with my now ex boyfriend, the for the last 5 months we've been tight. When we first met 2 years ago it was like we both looked into each others soul. I want to be his wife! But we both need to grow up and that's why i wont date him. I think that's why he thinks i tease him. i did run off with his best friend when i first broke up with my boyfriend and that really hurt him and he always bring it up. ok first off all i can say is im fucking sorry and i regret it. How do i show more?!? I'll be ok im leaving this horrible town and people so i think it'll be a good break and yes im running away from my problems.

You really don't want to be involved in a mess like this. You are very young. You have lots of time to meet a great man and think about marriage. This bloke is certainly not much of a husband if he's married.

[love_u2_adam]

what he isnt married ahaha but who ever he does in the end i will know more about him then she will lol.


but ya im done with it...

[Night & Day]

where t-f is a smackyouupsidethehead smiley.
Or how about a chainyouupuntilyouare21 smiley.

Oh child.
You need this one the most though

[Laura M]

Originally Posted by love_u2_adam what he isnt married ahaha but who ever he does in the end i will know more about him then she will lol. but ya im done with it...

Ooops, sorry. This dude does not sound like he has been much of a boyfriend. You don't need to be with someone who will hurt you. You deserve much better.

[love_u2_adam]

he isnt nice hes a total frickin dick...and i do deserve more. But im happy being single right now, i dont go for a lot of guys

[LemonMacPhisto]

Originally Posted by love_u2_adam ugh we aren't dating.... like i mean i know more about him and his life then his wife will probably know. Hes been through a ton of crap. it's hard to leave him cause he was my first and he hurt me then too. I walked away for 7 months with my now ex boyfriend, the for the last 5 months we've been tight. When we first met 2 years ago it was like we both looked into each others soul. I want to be his wife! But we both need to grow up and that's why i wont date him. I think that's why he thinks i tease him. i did run off with his best friend when i first broke up with my boyfriend and that really hurt him and he always bring it up. ok first off all i can say is im fucking sorry and i regret it. How do i show more?!? I'll be ok im leaving this horrible town and people so i think it'll be a good break and yes im running away from my problems. He's 19 i forgot to say that lol..

I think you're confusing your feelings for him. You obviously have some connection with him, but neither of you guys are equipped to know if it is "love" or even handle it if that truly is the case. That's not meant as a slight on either of you, just something I've gathered. I have a girlfriend right now and we both share great feelings between each other... if it's actual love or something else, we don't know, but if it ever gets to a point where we'd feel uncomfortable, we'd have to cut each other lose. It'd be hard, but you'll be hitting yourself if you stay in a degenerative situation when you could be having so much more, you know? It's not entirely his fault, nor is it entirely yours, but if you've got nothing holding you down, you should go elsewhere.

That's my 2 cents, for whatever it's worth.

[Liesje]

Originally Posted by LemonMacPhisto I think you're confusing your feelings for him. You obviously have some connection with him, but neither of you guys are equipped to know if it is "love" or even handle it if that truly is the case..

I agree. It sounds like you are in love with the idea of him as your first and your first real relationship, how tight you feel with him....but not really HIM, you know? It sounds like you want it to work out so you are trying to make excuses for him and yourself. It's OK to realize it didn't work out and move on. You have to look at what it is, not what it was or could have been. Go on vacation, don't think about him, enjoy your vacation being single. Perhaps when you come back you won't feel so attached to the idea of being with him or what could have happened.

[love_u2_adam]

i know. It's hard letting go and i don't know if i can.. like seriously..fuck.
Well see when i come back how i feel.. it could be im just lonely for someone and this is the cure.
i mean i havent really done anything or gone anywhere for the last 2 months. so idk

[Carek1230]

You are young and have so many years ahead of you for fun, boyfriends, relationships, etc. I think the most important thing you can do in order to be happy (and it helps get over heartache from break ups quicker) is to completely believe in and love yourself. If you can be completely OK with being single and contentadly happy with yourself in all ways, then that makes you a more solid person, a healthier individual and it also allows you to enjoy healthy relationships too. You don't have to be in a relationship in order to be complete or be completely happy. From what you've shared, the guy sounds like sort of a jerk. And if this has been the first *real* love, it will be one you will get over, and you will heal and grow from it, but you will never ever forget it.

[love_u2_adam]

well that brought a tear to my eye....

you always know how to make me cry!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Carek1230]

Didn't mean to make you cry, just that from what I gather you DO have a good head on your shoulders and a good heart (your parents raised you right, girl!) and that you are young so you have lots of time ahead of you. So be patient with life, have fun, love yourself and basically be a good person. Your life will be surprisingly rewarded.

[Night & Day]

Oh, and take your pill.

:wink;

[gman]

Dont lay all the blame at the guys door. She sed in her original post she treats him badly too. Sounds like a typical pair of kids to me!

[sue4u2]

Originally Posted by love_u2_adam so idk

I think you do know.
Stop second guessing yourself.
You're instincts are on the right track.